Choices

A relationships with God isn’t based solely on that special feeling you get when some speaker has a really good message one night and the worship set is phenomenal. Sometimes, the worship set isn’t phenomenal and the speaker isn’t that great. Sometimes that incredible feeling isn’t always there. A relationship with God is first about choosing to follow Him, choosing to believe in Him, because that weird feeling inside your stomach isn’t always there. Am I being too real for you people? Are my words not making sense? It’s just like falling in love with someone — that head over heels feeling isn’t always going to be there. It comes and it goes. But when it’s not there, you still make a choice to love that person. It’s like making a choice to love God, even when that feeling isn’t there at the moment.

I say all this because today I have to push myself into spending time with Him. I haven’t done it yet, but I’m going to… and last night I sat for four hours telling myself I was going to do my devotional before I actually did it. Today it will not be that long.

I don’t know. Maybe I’m wrong… but I know that that incredible feeling from great speakers and great worship songs wears off after a few days, weeks, months, and you’re left on a plateau with a choice. I guess I’m on a small plateau right now, just for the past two days. But I know it will get better. Keep pushing forward. I guess that’s all I can do when this sense of tiredness and, dare I say, apathy takes place. But pushing forward and being proactive keeps that tiredness and apathy from taking root in our lives. Thank God for that, seriously.

I’m going to do my devotional now. “How to be a Woman of Excellence” is a really great book, and I would recommend any young woman look into getting it and working through it. The author is Cynthia Heald.

Goodnight. (: