Grace and Love

In my last post, I mentioned Grace and Love. I’m a really big fan of the two, and of Hope, also.

The thing I want to say straight away is this: I want so desperately to know Grace and to know Love. Not just know them… but to really know them. I want to know Grace and Love the way the I was made to know them. I want the seeds of Grace and Love to really go down deep in my soul so that I can truly know and understand the two.

I think that’s why I buy so many books regarding the two. I buy book after book after book, each one with the hope that maybe I’ll finally understand grace and love more. I buy each one secretly wishing that this book will be the one that really reveals the Lord to me.

I keep forgetting that, though the Lord can be found in these silly, yet often useful books, He is mostly found in the Bible. He is mostly found in community. He is mostly found in places that I mostly don’t look for Him.

So, I buy books. I buy book after book, hoping for grace – hoping for love.

And I know love, and I know grace. But there is something deeper in me that just cries out to really, truly, deeply know grace and know love.

I really just don’t have anything else to say right now. Except I want to know. My heart wants to know. And I’ve caught glimpses and had little tastes of the real deal, but it’s never enough. This desire is almost insatiable. I want it so badly.

 

 

*sigh*

I wish I had more for you.