Sigh

I never thought I would dislike myself as much as I do right now. And all for material reasons, dang it. Two premium overdraft fees, a bounced check, and $50.00 to someplace that I can’t even recognize by the code on the online account I keep.

How does someone get so lazy and lose so much track of their spending?

Not only that, but why didn’t I keep an eye on that check that I wrote TWO WEEKS AGO? Shouldn’t the receiver already have cashed that thing the week I wrote it? I mean, I wrote it on a WEDNESDAY. And now I’m in a predicament, as I can’t cash a check from the school to use at the health clinic because guess what… THEY’D TAKE IT. The bank would take that sucker and I’d never see it and I would have stolen from the freaking school and Cambodia.

Again. I never thought I’d be so upset with myself.