75 Questions

Post taken from Here. But all answers to questions are mine.

75 questions to ask yourself

An old proverb says, “He that cannot ask cannot live”. If you want answers you have to ask questions. These are 75 questions you should ask yourself and try to answer. You can ask yourself these questions right now and over the course of your life.
1. Why not me? Why wouldn’t it be me?
2. Am I nice? Sometimes. Sometimes I’m a complete jerk.
3. Am I doing what I really want to do? No. I don’t even know what I really want to do. I’m all over the place.
4. What am I grateful for? My family. As ridiculous as they can be, and as angry as they make me sometimes, I know that they’ll always back me up. I know they’ll always be my #1 fans.
5. What’s missing in my life? Nothing. At least, nothing should be. I have food, water, a roof over my head, and more “stuff” than anyone should really own. Nothing should be missing.
6. Am I honest? Honesty is sort of like a spectrum scale for me. It depends on what, on who, on why. But most of the time, yes.
7. Do I listen to others? I hear others speak a lot. Sometimes I listen and soak it all in. Sometimes I just nod.
8. Do I work hard? Not as hard as I should, but hard in comparison to some.
9. Do I help others? Yes. I’m constantly looking for a way to help someone.
10. What do I need to change about myself? The way I think about the person I see in the mirror. And my weight. I need to change my weight.
11. Have I hurt others? Too often. My heart is literally aching right now thinking of how many people I’ve hurt in the past, whether I meant to or not.
12. Do I complain? Too often. 
13. What’s next for me? School for the next week, then finals the week after. Then summer camps and Cambodia. Then school again.
14. Do I have fun? Sometimes. Sometimes I find myself withholding the fun, and purposely making something crappy. Sometimes I find myself having too much fun, if that’s even possible.
15. Have I seized opportunities? Not many. A lot of times I let them slip on by without so much as a second glance. Sometimes I let them go after a long, drawn out internal debate because I get scared I won’t measure up.
16. Do I care about others? Oh gosh, so much.
17. Do I spend enough time with my family? Not nearly enough time. I tend to create space between us.
18. Am I open-minded? I would like to think so.
19. Have I seen enough of the world? I could never see enough of the world. Pictures just don’t suffice.
20. Do I judge others? Constantly. But usually only in my head.
21. Do I take risks? Not like I tell myself I should. Please see the above question about opportunities. 
22. What is my purpose? To live my life as fully as possible (still in the progress of doing) and to bring glory to the Most High King (Yahweh).
23. What is my biggest fear?  Failure. Not being good enough.
24. How can I conquer that fear? Taking the risks I so often turn away from.
25. Do I thank people enough? I’m going to go with ‘no.’ Can you thank anyone enough?
26. Am I successful? Define “successful.”
27. What am I ashamed of? Things from my past. Things from my here and now, actually.
28. Do I annoy others? I mean, probably. I’ve always been that annoying kid.
29. What are my dreams? Oh, friends. Mostly just to travel the world, to take photos, to get married, and to have kids. I’m a simple girl with simple dreams.
30. Am I positive? I once looked at a green house with fading paint that was turning yellow all over and said, “Maybe it’s just pollen.” I do believe pollen season has come and gone.
31. Am I negative? Sometimes.
32. Is there an afterlife? Yes. Heaven and hell.
33. Does everything happen for a reason? I don’t like the way that that is phrased. I think things happen because they happen. Good or bad, they just happen, be it because of my sins and triumphs or because of yours. Things happen because they happen. I think what we do with the things that happen to us or to others is the “reason” that everyone talks about. Example: you miscarried a child and decided to have another, and now you have this one. The miscarriage of your first child didn’t happen because you were going to have this second child. It just happened. And you took that and learned and grew from it, and you had a second child and now you are more grateful. That is the “reason” for the miscarriage. Something just doesn’t sit right within me by saying “everything happens for a reason.” I can’t even form all my thoughts into words right now about this, because that phrase just doesn’t make sense to me.
34. What can I do to change the world? Love others when no one else does.
35. What is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done? Loved someone when they didn’t love me back.
36. Am I cheap? When asked in bookstores if I have their member  card, my response is typically “did I have to pay for it?”
37. Am I greedy? Yes.
38. Who do I love? Family. Friends. Jesus.
39. Who do I want to meet? my Father.
40. Where do I want to go? Everywhere. Anywhere.
41. What am I most proud of? My ‘B’ in math my senior year of high school.
42. Do I care what others think about me? Oh, of course I do.
43. What are my talents? Talent. Is intelligence or knowledge a talent? Because I’m an intelligent young woman. Not a genius, but definitely sort of intelligent. I also care about people a lot. Is that a talent? Compassion? Empathy? Listening skills? What about the ability to nod or shake my head at the respective times when I pretend that I’m listening? Is that a talent?
44. Do I utilize those talents? Sometimes. And sometimes I use them to manipulate. Who doesn’t?
45. What makes me happy? Driving down SR417 towards Oviedo with the windows down and the music up and the sunset blinding my eyes.
46. What makes me sad? Driving back to school late at night after being in Oviedo, windows up and music low.
47. What makes me angry? More than anything, the arrogance and rude/harsh/hateful words I hear from strangers, from friends, and from family. Not even if they’re directed towards me.. just at all. 
48. Am I satisfied with my appearance? No. Probably never.
49. Am I healthy? Nope.
50. What was the toughest time in my life? Junior – Senior year of high school. Or when I was in middle school. I was apparently super depressed during those years.
51. What was the easiest time in my life? Probably now.
52. Am I selfish? Yes.
53. What was the craziest thing I did? Commit to actually going to Cambodia.
54. What is the craziest thing I want to do? Actually go to Cambodia.
55. Do I procrastinate? I’m the #1 procrastinator. 
56. What is my greatest regret? Not going on all the trips I ever said I would go on. Not going on MercyShips, or to Cambodia in high school, or to Europe, or on that road trip to and from California that was supposed to happen next month. 
57. What has had the greatest impact on my life? The lies I’ve heard.
58. Who has had the greatest impact on my life? Philip Colb.
59. Do I stand up for myself? Sometimes. Mostly just in my thoughts.
60. Have I settled for mediocrity? I think so.
61. Do I hold grudges? Perhaps.
62. Do I read enough? No, but dang it, I want to read more. That’s for sure.
63. Do I listen to my heart? Sometimes I think I do, but really it’s just me thinking again. (;
64. Do I donate enough to the less fortunate? I think so, but I would still like to donate more.
65. Do I pray only when I want something? Sadly, yes. 
66. Do I constantly dwell on the past? Not constantly, but pretty frequently.
67. Do I let other people’s negativity affect me? Sometimes. It depends on if their negativity is directed towards me or not.
68. Do I forgive myself? Rarely.
69. When I help someone do I think “What’s in it for me”? Nope. Sometimes. It depends on who it is.
70. Am I aware that someone always has it worse than me? Yes. So painfully aware. 
71. Do I smile more than I frown? Nope.
72. Do I surround myself with good people? I think so. (:
73. Do I take time out for myself? Not nearly enough as I should. Or, if I do, it’s never quality time like I need it to be.
74. Do I ask enough questions? No. But I do think enough questions.
75. What other questions do I have? Why don’t people care more about the oppressed? 

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